tonight was not a good night… is not a good night…
it has been a year, a year today that i decided that i could not live under the same roof as the man i was married to
it has been 360 days since i loaded my car with my belongings and moved
it has been 356 days since i got the phone call that told me my grandmother wouldn’t be with us much longer, that there was nothing else any one could do for her
it has been 11 months and 20 days since i celebrated christmas with my entire family for the last time
it has been 9 months and 1 day since i told my husband that i was done, done. i wanted a divorce
it has been 7 months and 21 days since a judge signed my divorce papers
it has been 6 months and 1 day since my dearest grandmother left this earth
it has been just over 5 months since my father confessed his knowledge of the disease that lives inside him
it has been 4 months since the doctor confirmed what we already knew
it has been 3 months and 2 days since the doctor passed on the test results that would change the way i view the world
so it has been a year… such a long year…
It truly has been a very long year. I’m so sorry for the loss of your sweet grandma. I pray every day for your daddy; I know he has feared this for a long time. I know the sense of loss and failure at ending a marriage, but it is nothing compared to the drought of being completely, emotionally alone in a home that is shared with your spouse.
This year has been hard, no doubt. But it has also shown you how strong you can be when you need to. It has confirmed that God will never fail you nor forsake you. It has shown you that life is precious and that you cannot ever take a single day for granted. You have learned and felt the true value of family and friendship in ways that you never understood before.
I pray that this next year will be a much better one for you and that you will have unspeakable joys and triumphs in your life. I pray, also, that this next year will draw you closer to the Lord, your family and friends and that you will discover that all you need will be provided by the loving hand of our Heavenly Father.
I love you, Sweetie.
Comment by Lynda — November 16, 2010 @ 8:16 am |
It certainly has been a rough year for you. I am so sorry Sweetie! Hang in there! It only has to get better! 2009 was that year for me…toughest of my life by far. I am here to tell you that I am glad I stuck around…2010 has been a great year. So keep the faith, God IS in control, he knows what he is doing. He knows your future and I believe it is a bright one. You are loved and so very cared about.
Comment by Misty — November 17, 2010 @ 1:27 pm |
Wow, did not relize so much can happen in a year. It was a ruff one for us. But I pray this year is going to be better!!!
Comment by mom — February 28, 2011 @ 1:32 pm |