tonight was not a good night… is not a good night…
it has been a year, a year today that i decided that i could not live under the same roof as the man i was married to
it has been 360 days since i loaded my car with my belongings and moved
it has been 356 days since i got the phone call that told me my grandmother wouldn’t be with us much longer, that there was nothing else any one could do for her
it has been 11 months and 20 days since i celebrated christmas with my entire family for the last time
it has been 9 months and 1 day since i told my husband that i was done, done. i wanted a divorce
it has been 7 months and 21 days since a judge signed my divorce papers
it has been 6 months and 1 day since my dearest grandmother left this earth
it has been just over 5 months since my father confessed his knowledge of the disease that lives inside him
it has been 4 months since the doctor confirmed what we already knew
it has been 3 months and 2 days since the doctor passed on the test results that would change the way i view the world
so it has been a year… such a long year…
