just when i start to think i am putting the pieces of me back together, he comes along and smashes them to bits again.
he has started dating. the man who said i couldn’t be easily replaced, that that was just a stupid idea in my head. the man who up until 31 days ago still said that he had had the marriage he signed up for, the kind of wife he had always wanted. of course those words were not said until i told him i was leaving.
up until this point, i could still look back and see that there were good things in our marriage. i thought he could too. now i just feel like our marriage was a sham. he didn’t love me, not like i loved him. you don’t put yourself out there for someone else after just 21 days, not if you loved that other person, not like he told me he did.
so many times i told him that i always felt like he could bring anyone else in to replace me, that he had no true ties to me that i was just a comfort for him, just someone to take care of him. he always told me that i was wrong, he just showed me that i was right all along.
it hurts to be right.
Oh gosh. I am sending you a big internet hug right now *hug*. I cannot imagine what you must be feeling. My college boyfriend of 4 years started dating someone else during the last month of our relationship and I didn’t find out until after we broke up. I am so sorry.
Comment by ClassroomConfessions — April 19, 2010 @ 12:10 pm |
Oh sweetie, I’m so sorry. I know how much this hurts. Please know that there are many people who love you very much and to whom you are completely irreplaceable. I know, I’m one of them!
Comment by Lynda — April 19, 2010 @ 5:20 pm |
oh, sas, i know you are hurting so bad right now. i wish i had a magic fix. maybe we should try to do dinner tomorrow. wed. is my slow day and my husband has to work, not that he’d care anyway. i think you and i both need some face time. chin up. at least you are reassured that you were right and that things will get better for you from here.
Comment by mrsgee — April 20, 2010 @ 7:30 am |
Sweetheart, You do not know how I wish I could just hold you in my arms and make everything alright. I pray daily for you and I love you so much. Like your Granny always says “The sun will shine tomorrow”
Love you my dear daughter!!!
Comment by Mom — April 26, 2010 @ 9:19 am |
I’ll put this nicely. You are way too good for that jerk. Now he is out looking for some other victim to terrorize. He’s only dating to comfort his broken male ego. It has nothing to do with you.
Comment by Karen — April 29, 2010 @ 1:14 pm |